Various Ways to Go


One night you may lie down your bones and chest
You don’t have time to suck eternal rest
Breakfast, chili peppers and crusty bread
Your heart is sorry
But this is the last night
The last night of your ever-caring heart
Newborn is crying tears of love for good
I’m sitting outside reading worn-out book
I’m taking another log to keep me warm
Farewell my friend
Let’s hope that dead by necessity awaits us all

Guitar is feeling fingers on its neck
Your songs are passions drowning out your voice
You let your soul to dwell in vain for years
And now the strings are broken
You let them to define your whole life fully
There is nothing left, there is no point
I’m dancing with Mary spinning circles and hope
If my strings are broken down, I try to blow
If there is a cloud it doesn’t mean the stars were fake all along
You were good my friend
Let’s hope that death by error will miss us all

He is picking success on his own
The way to stars is easy and crystal clear
His hands are holding the life with clenched fists
He often sighs:
“No one can take it from me,
No one can take it from me…”
But the violin does not dissolve in him as it should
But the kisses do not transcend to her as they should
The suffering is mild and dishonest
I pity you my fellow human, dead by soul damage is the worst
Let’s believe, for souls are almighty

May 2020
Often we are worried about death, but what if we are dead inside already? Hopefully there is always a way from this unfortunate state.

Embracing Solitude


Treacherous claws of despair
What have I done to thee?
To walking by like a murderer
In a foreign country
Where no one knows my crimes

I wonder what led them astray
What have I done to them?
To judge me so bluntly
“It’s clear! You killed the bird!”
But what if I saved it?

No, that was not what I meant
But everyone’s turning faces
It would be wrong to fight
To fight for something that’s obviously right
Curse me! I must be a hideous being…

Though no man is an island
Before God I’m alone
Before eternal inner self
Yes, here I am trembling with fear
So anxious about this endless loneliness
That I cannot be saved from
That I don’t want to be saved from
Yes, here I am embracing solitude
Embracing my beautiful deformity

July 2020
I had a dream and in this dream everyone was leaving me because of who I was. Although it was dreadful for the most part, at the end there was a strange feeling of serenity.

You Know Nothing


Sit down and watch the lake go misty mild
Forget what is known about your hellish star
Remember to always have a heaven reason why
And please don’t ever, don’t ever, don’t go wild

Old oak is wrapping childish dreams to roots
Your hair is intertwined with branches high
You felt him back then, now you know the rules
You should not sell the heart in search for the truth

I’m holding saltcellar and a loaf of bread
I’m sitting straight and hopefully true to you
I felt it back then, now I… (know nothing?)
I should not sell the heart for a feeble cry

A little bit of magic is stuffed in all
A little bit of eternity in all
A little bit that is never to be known
A little bit that is always to be shown

Sit down and watch the lake go misty mild
Forget what is known about your hellish star
Remember to always have a heaven reason why
And please don’t ever, don’t ever, don’t go wild

August 2020
There is something in everything. Something untouchable. There is no tree nor any river in the real world. Or in other words you will never know neither of them. You know nothing.

Sooner or Later


Was I cold inside the night you offered me a coat?
Did you feel some inner voice that was dying young?
Though hearts cannot be touched without a reason
What was it?
Did we breathe?
Just a dream or something
Something to die for

But sooner or later, apple of my eye
Our souls will slowly bind us close
And there will be no collision
In the whole wide universe
Just a peaceful realization of some deeper traces
That will guide us to better places
Where the past will become a strange illusion
And we will return to fairytales once again
For the last time and never more

September 2020
Maybe the most important events in life are the most natural ones. Maybe you will not scream, but you will be silent. Maybe you will not cry, but you will have a little smile on your lips. Maybe nothing will colide, but everything will fit.

Fable


If only you dive off my image
If only you dive the sea
If only you dive in my village
If only you dare to see

All my thoughts a feeble projection
Don’t take it in
Face me

January 2021
Late at night, I was inspired by Justin Vernon line: "Say nothing of my fable, no" from Bon Iver song 8 circle. Sometimes you tremble with fear. What ideas do other people have about you? Have all your inner and outer chatter created an illusion for you and others "to enjoy"?

Wisdom Protects the Natural


In this world of terror
You’re shaking like a leaf
Most of it alien
But you cannot help it
What you feel is the real

Am I of anything?
Anything to use?
I’m reaching
But there are no rules

I’ve got the rules
But I fear the leap
Let me hold you
And teach me weep

June 2021
The only reason to become wise is to be able to protect the good. This is the axiom.