For Today
I felt you long ago Your arms are mine I met you long ago Now we're dancing Your smile Like happiness Your eyes Like it is everything for you that matters The dance is over You are trying to be good The life is harder You are trying to be good
2015/2016
One day I returned home and there was
this smell of her parfume on my hands.
I dared to dream about her just for that day.
Nature Conquers
Alone in the mountains Nature conquers everything Our minds, our hearts Our future and the past Suddenly you are sitting Looking at the endless lake Cottages full of solitude behind you Cottages full of nature Your feet are pleasantly frozen The no emotion sun above you You can’t see any path behind or ahead You found yourself in a different way You have nothing now You are nothing now So just take a step And let the nature conquers you
August 2017
I was sitting inside while outside was rainnig.
I was in Norway on my holiday. The day before
I hiked the surrounded mountains. For the whole
day I met just one person. I was tottaly overcomed
by nature.
Je zvláštní takto žít
Je zvláštní takto žít Ráno vstaneš a jdeš A možná, že taky ne Nevím Věčně přemýšlíš, kdo jsi Taky kdo nejsi Nebo si lehneš A ležíš Každopádně je to zvláštní Nic nevíš, a přitom se snažíš Nějak být a snít Věřit
Říjen 2017
Jednoho dne jsem si lehnul a přemýšlel
jsem o tom, jak je život absurdní. Můžete jít
po ulici a nějaký blázen vás zastřelí a vy
skončíte. Není zvláštní takto žít?
Why Are You Still So Far Away?
I guess I could have told you this About those dreams in joyful days Not so happy as you might think Also about the ones in dark Not so hopeless as you might feel All of this When you have asked me Why are you still so far away? I guess I could have hugged you strong With all my great beliefs in you That closeness would have done the deed I’m sorry just a bit for me Sometimes one should at least do something nice All of this When you have thought Why are you still so far away? I trust you dear in seeing me So what would be the point in giving up on you I like it here In your struggle and in your happiness Your moody face is suddenly changed and even you don’t know why I’m all in your playful smile Full of kindness, full of kindness All of this and slightly more when we are living Why are you still so far away?
March 2018
The neverending struggle between introverts
and extroverts. The feeling of loving someone
so much but actually have nothing to say to them.
First Glimpse of Autumn
After numerous weeks of devastating heat First glimpse of Autumn finally arrives It starts with a stormy rain so dense, so you cannot see through it And then on the second day the sun almost lazily breaks from its prison Suddenly, the cold breeze is no more freezing but comforting There is this key change inside your body, inside your soul Almost, as some forgotten god is calling you for patience Almost, as this is the only life you've ever had
September 2018
The moment when the autumn arrives and
after heavy rain there is this fresh air.
Life in Reverse
I've been dead so many times that I've lost count No, I don’t mean inside but literally dead Imagine losing all of your dreams every now and then In such moments life simply cease out Thank God for always bringing me back I guess I call it Phoenix stage Come to think of it I have a handful of funeral songs And not until today I dear to dream about a wedding one You would think I'm not gonna mention the name But hey, let’s keep this honest It’s Into My Arms by my dear friend Nick Because what could be possibly better than kind words of such a man? I also have you on my mind Simply cause you are everywhere where my joy is Am I feeling happiness? I guess I am Am I fearless now? For sure not But maybe it’s finally a life worth giving And when the end will come, I should only see some kind of light
December 2018
I was thinking about how miserable I was in the
past and how I'm actually getting better and better.
It almost seems as if I was living life in reverse.
Grasping Healing
Again my soul is dying hard Sorry I think myself apart The surface silent mourning now The inside stormy question how I don’t trust in my guts anymore The saints have never opened the door I'm screaming Jesus the only one Forever present under the burning sun Equations could convince for a while Brother show me your fakeish smile I must decide yet everything’s a lie O Lord have mercy on me and let me try Cause deaf is striking chords on my guitar Cause gray is reading poems on my own Cause blind is your beauty to my eyes
August 2019
Depression.
Longing
I miss you my darling one You were never here but that’s just what I do I miss you my dearest one You are gone for forever but I… My guts are twisting inside out By your face I'm tortured in my dreams I'm kicking and screaming for your love Let’s be honest I'm just dying here alive I wish I could touch you lightly like a breeze I long to press your body till we collapse I dare say: “Kiss me hard” I dare say: “Let’s make thousands of children and spend the life together” But remember you are there You are forever gone And I'm here all alone
October 2019
Sometimes being single is easy sometimes not. Sometimes you
have this energy inside of you and you have no one to give it to.
Happens to the Heart
I always hide the truth in me Not that I would be lying to you It's just all things are hard to see It’s just all things are hard to bear The earth is spinning still the same My world is broken deep apart No-one around to curse or blame What happens to the heart This living does not worth the fight I’m slowly dying in your eyes There always be another night To touch the stars, to scream my lungs I dreamt about loving you dear But it was just bodies in the dark Don’t know the feeling fighting fear What happens to the heart So now I’m roaming streets of Brno Tonight I drink black beer alone I’m gonna be a builder of Lego To think about nothing at all Everybody has gone crazy for real They cannot give you genuine smile You always hiding, always fake What happens to the heart I’m hypnotized by the window line To take one step and jump straight down Oh, the torture bed for my twisted spine You’re vomiting through the toilet hole You’re beautiful girl with tired face I cannot even reach your soul God, I cannot even hold your tears What happens to the heart And just like that the heart is sank I guess we used to dance in pain We always wanted to win all sides So naturally we lost it all And now the heart is buried down Under it all and it’s taking too long I wonder how long before the damage is done I wonder what happens to the heart
January 2020
The tittle and the structure of the poem is inspired by Leonard Cohen's song Happens to the Heart.
The tittle got me into thinking about how much can take your heart if you are unwell for a long time.
Where is the point of not being able to come back, of not being able to restore oneself and to forget.
Raped Love
You see, they are so sweet They’re like a candy floss Like a little kitten, they’re too cute No one can dispute Holding hands, whispering huge words Forever and ever, yeah, forever and ever They are fated, they are so into each other You see, that must be it, the story from fairytales Slow down and take a breath dear Candy floss just decay your teeth Kittens are stupid, troublesome and naive In couple of years, maybe even weeks, you will see It’s obvious they never liked each other They are just too in love In this very moment nothing could be above But the time is always coming for the big love But what about them? You surely see they are something different They are so long together that you cannot say who is who They are always smiling to each other They are living together Going for holidays by their car One day they were singing crazily to a tune I expect they will marry soon Don’t be childish They are trapped in a cage So, naturally they have to sing crazily Smile is horrible twist of the mouth They just got used to each other That’s not living together, that’s rather dying together They got stuck in a ridiculous pose That’s why you cannot tell one from the other And what about these two? They used to be best friends Now, they are something more When he fell, she was terrified When she cried, he was petrified I’m sure they would give life for each other Proof of love on every corner Their life is going to be peaceful love You quite right, they were truly best friends And I’m quite sure they still are “Something more” is such a cheap phrase Cause is it truly more? More often it is less, I would guess Friends help each other and so they helped themselves Cause to be left alone was simply unbearable To face the unknown in such an age was infinite Oh, but I know a guy and a girl, and they are infinite… Oh, yeah, I know them too and they are true There’s nothing much left to say And that’s how you know that’s it What is it? I don’t know It used to be called love but nowadays love is raped Love is not what it used to be in the old books Love is hanging on a billboard Love is a cheap package for our joy Love is something untouchable and sacred Love is something mysterious You either feel it or you don’t You cannot work on it, it’s a miracle! We live under the eye of a new god God of love, the only one Everyone screaming I’m in love! There are so many loves as there are man It doesn’t matter if you are going to hate each other Or if you are going to get divorced Or if you are going to scream that your girlfriend was a fucking bitch Or if you are going to betray him in the worst possible way No, nowadays this is just a byproduct What matters is that you are persuaded you have experienced the true love Because no-one can possibly lead life without experiencing the true love So we just settle with our little lies and called them the true love So the god of love, the only one, is satisfied This may seem to you as cynicism But if you think of it, it’s pretty romantic
February 2020
This poem is sort of a conversation between a naive and cynic person. But if you think of it the cynic person
is rather romantic because he/she is persuaded that almost no love is real and that there is something "more"
that not so many people can achieve.
What's For?
And what is the life good for? If you’re not able to say what’s right If you’re not able to say what’s wrong The sky is blue and the grass is green The dead is near and the Sun is heat We love our brothers and so our sisters We want to bath our feet in a spring And sing, sing, sing! I’ve been there too, I've also tried to doubt To doubt simple facts in life But it’s just for fools You think, you are a martyr But you are nothing but a joke But tell me honestly Would you care for something that’s permanent for forever? And have you ever been doubtless about something that matters? It seems that everything that matters to you is relative Doesn’t it? Once there was a painter His canvas was white He started just with one color Sparkling with joy But as he got older He tried to get it better He tried to come up with a new color every now and then Oh, how he wished for a painting that would be perfect Perfect for everyone Yes, everyone could come up with a new color Potentially he ended up with gray Color of nothingness Color of emptiness Now, he is desperate For every color he adds the painting is even more gray Now he wishes for a fresh start He would keep his canvas just for himself He would paint just with his favorite But gray is never gonna be white again And what is the life good for? If you are able to say what’s right If you are able to say what’s wrong
March 2020
The more you get older the harder is to say what actually matters and what doesn't.
Although there are things/ideas/feelings that are hard to doubt unless you don't want
to doubt everything (what's the point of asking yourself if the sky is really blue?),
almost everything that matters to us can be doubt. The older you get the more opinions
you are going to hear and accept as possible answers. But what happens if you have
too many answers for everything. Suddenly you don't know what is right or wrong. You
realize that there is no such thing as right or wrong and you are desperate. You start
to ask what is this life even for? Really, what is the meaning to live for? Because if
there is none than why am I even trying?
